30 Days of Truth-- Day 4

Something to forgive someone for?

Oh god. That list is long. I hold grudges for the longest time. I wish I didn't. That's something else that I hate about myself.

I don't think I'm ready to forgive anyone for anything yet, the wounds are all still fresh to me, even if they are still a few years old. I think I may never forgive that person, even though I have had people ask me to. But that seems a bit insensitive to me... To not understand my side of things. I may never forgive that person. My life is a wreck a lot of the time because of it.

I don't know. It all seems so fresh.
-Harvest.

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