Monday, September 15, 2014

Mental Illness and the Lifestyle



Hey guys. Harvest here!

So I have been working on getting past my mental illnesses in the lifestyle. I have heard and read many things about mental illness in the lifestyle as well. I see that there are a lot of people who don’t truly understand that you can be severely hindered by your mental illnesses.

I don’t like to say “I am a paranoid schizophrenic” because that means it owns me if I say it that way. I do not let my illness own me. I want to be the owner in this case. I want to be the one who says how things go. I take medicine to keep it from being as bad as it can be but I still have my bad days.

Do I think that my illness has me trapped? No, I certainly do not. Even with all the medications I take, I still am the one in charge. That doesn’t mean that I do not have hallucinations and the voices. I hear them and I choose to ignore what they say. I don’t want to be –that- person.

There are things you can say that really get a person down. When you are having a bad day, you don’t want someone harassing you about if you took your medication or not. It’s not fun to have to rely on meds, but you don’t need to push a person around about it.

My Owner makes sure I take my medication properly each day. He helps me remember and when I need help he gets my medication for me so I can take it if it’s not in my direct area of where I am.
What I want you to take away from this is that no matter what, you are strong. You are capable of conquering your own body. It may not seem like it, and you might have a really hard time where it seems impossible to beat. But you just have to wait it out because it does get better.

One technique that I find helps me out the most is meditation and breathing exercises. When I have a trigger come up with my misophonia (a hatred of noise) I just do as much breathing exercises that I can stand. I count backwards from ten and try to not listen to the trigger. I also turn on my pink noise generator on my phone or my mp3 player to tune out the sounds. Living with misophonia can be very hard and people don’t understand it because it’s still a relatively newly discovered mental illness. It can be seen in people who can’t stand chewing sounds and going into blackout rages when they hear them. I used to not be able to go to restaurants because I would just get so mad at people when they chewed with their mouths open. It was, and still is, a very hard thing to live with.

If people were to understand mental illness more, the world would be a better place.

Here are some helpful links to help:
--A good site to ask for help and talk about your days: http://www.dailystrength.org/

I want to hear some of the things that you do to deal with your mental illnesses. I want to see how you act. Drop me a message or a comment and we’ll see how you do. I would love to hear from you all.


Thank you guys!

-Harvest Hellion

Thursday, August 28, 2014

Been a While



It’s been a while guys.

So I have been doing things to try to get our D/S relationship to run a bit more smoothly. We’ve been going over rules that I can follow that aren’t too restrictive and are things that he wants me to do. Mostly they are simple things like get washed up at certain times and the likes.

I have also been doing research into how to get over things in your past. I am pretty much one of the worst people when it comes to holding grudges. I’ve held onto so much anger and hatred over the years that I believe it is making me sicker than I actually am. Stress really does get to a person after a while.
If anyone has any suggestions on getting over the past, please leave me a comment or an email because I would love to change myself drastically.

I really would like to get out and do some more stuff in the local scene, but my money woes are in such turmoil these days. It makes it hard to do much of anything. But I think things will be sorting themselves out a little more. I hope we can make it to the local Halloween party when it happens so we can show off the costumes that we have made for this year. Otherwise we’re just going to the casino to wear our costumes there like we always do anyway. It’s free and there’s a contest.

My costume is a 1950s pinup dress. It’s all black and goes to about knee length, the standard length of a dress in the 1950s.I can’t wait until I get it finished completely. Then I will have something nice to wear to pinup photo shoots and things as well. It’s a very sturdy dress and I’m very proud of it.

I’m a big fan of 1950s style household domestic servitude. I want to cook and clean and put things together for my love. He lets me do stuff, so we’re working on it. I am doing some research by keeping up with some domestic service blogs. I’ll try to get them to link to me on my page. I doubt it will work, but it’s worth a shot.


Anyway,

More to come later.

-Harvest Hellion

Thursday, August 14, 2014

Took a Break

Sorry about that break guys. I'm going to do my best to get back into the swing of things. I found out that I really like corsetry so there might be a lot of that coming up.

I haven't really been doing much with my life except for improving my sewing technique. I want to sew my own corsets at some point, but I don't know how well I will do. Just got to have faith in me somehow.

Can't wait to tell you all about the things that I learn as I learn them. :3

-Harvest

Monday, April 7, 2014

SJP-- Freedom and Tricks



Hey guys! Long time, no post!

So I’m back. I’m trying to get back into the swing of things. I’ve had a brilliantly wondrous weekend. I figured I’d kick off my return with a blog prompt post! So, let’s get down to the nitty-gritty.

“Do you identify as submissive or slave or something entirely different? What is your definition for that identity?”



This is actually a good question. I consider myself more submissive than slave. I’m too spoiled rotten though to be much of either. I consider myself a Pet. I like being taken care of, but I also am willing to do other things and I can be trained to do tricks. I’m good at tricks. That’s honestly one of my favorite parts.
I think that most people consider “doing tricks” to be demeaning and not something they want to take part of. I don’t feel ashamed or demeaned by this. I feel free. Like I am expressing myself further. It brings me into a pet kind of headspace that’s beautiful in its own way and intoxicating.

I think that a slave seems more focused than a sub does, because they give up most/all of their rights whereas a sub is more … I dunno, more loose. It’s not as strict. I’m not saying every situation is like that. I’ve seen some slaves who were pampered, too, and some submissives that are very strict. High protocol strict.

I like the idea of High Protocol, honestly. It seems very structured and I like that about it. I just like structure though I guess. Maybe that’s why I like doing tricks. Because I’m being commanded to do something and that helps me get into the right space. I don’t feel confined, I feel free.

I live this life 24/7. I do it in subtle ways though. I’m not very blatant, but I do wear cat ears wherever I go. It can be jarring. Some people don’t take me seriously, but I don’t mind. They think because I wear cat ears I’m just “silly” or “stupid.” What they don’t know is that I’m free. Free of the shackles of “normality” that everyone seems to want to confine themselves to. This does not mean I am above anyone. If anything it keeps me level. I get a lot of positive remarks about my cat ears, too. Those are the moments I cherish. They see me being free and can appreciate it.

I wish everyone could be so free.

-Harvest