Monday, September 30, 2013

Possibly a Mommy?

Hello all. :3

I’m up to no good again!!! Tee hee.

Well, Batsz and I have had a talk and we’ve decided that maybe we can play more and do things slowly. We always talk about how to do things slowly. What spurred this on was a visit to a class thrown by a local dungeon on Subspace, Subdrop, Aftercare, and etc. Everyone had stories and experiences except for me. I felt a little out of place. I want to be able to have my own stories to share with everyone too.

I think with my kitten play, I have my kitten headspace, and I think that is different than subspace. I am not entirely sure that they are the same thing. I’ll have to do some research into that some more.
This Friday I get to go to a support group meeting for subs. I love going to those meetings and talking to everyone and generally having an interesting time learning and things.

In other news, I will be trying to take on someone as my little girl. She is very sweet. She and I decided that I would make a good Mommy for her over the weekend. We have been talking for quite a while and even hanging out. I will help her in as many aspects that I possibly can and correct some of her more mature behavior, allow her to let out her Little as much as we can manage to. I am very excited about working with her, as she is a good friend. Batsz said he doesn’t have a problem with it, so he is allowing me to Top.


Saturday, September 28, 2013

SJP-- Lyrics and Dynamics

Submissive Journal Prompt time!!

“What song or lyric reminds you of your dynamic?”

The song that reminds me of my dynamic is currently Modest Mouse’s “Fire it up” with the following lyrics being the ones that are important to me:

“It honestly was beautifully done
Like trying to hide the daylight from the sun
Even if we had been sure enough, it's true we really didn't know
Even if we knew which way to head, but still we probably wouldn't go”

To me, this is like how the Bastz and I are in a place where we are stuck until we know more, but are nervous to make the first few steps. Something difficult to do and lacking the courage to do it. That and we are in a place where we cannot act as much as we want to… 

It’s not a bad thing though. It’s just the pace that we are moving at. I think everyone has their own paces, you just have to see what is going to happen at the end. Some people are more active, and some people are less active. I want to get Batsz into things a little bit more, but he doesn’t seem to want to do that half the time. We are still talking things out. Communication is KEY people.


Tuesday, September 24, 2013

SJP-- Domestic Chores

How about a SJP?

Today is:

“Do you enjoy domestic chores? Which ones do you like more than others?”

I would say that yes, I enjoy domestic chores to a degree. I have a really love-hate relationship thing going with chores. I do dishes quite a bit by hand, but I really don’t like it. Something about sticking your hands in old food and things is just gross. I let it go sometimes, but I am then reminded of my little slips by my lovely Owner. I swear I’m getting better at this.

Laundry would have to be my favorite chore. It’s the easiest for me to do, but I often have to find creative ways to carry it from the hamper to the washing machine or the dryer. I have a bad back so sometimes I have to have help. I stress myself out if I put it into a large pile and try to pick it up because I don’t want to hurt my back. I really baby it sometimes. This is because I injured it a few years ago and have been in pain ever since. I like the smell of clean laundry and I like when I have a towel or blanket in the dryer for a while. I like the warmth that it provides afterwards. My Owner is very kind and occasionally helps me carry the piles of clothes about when I get too much of it at once.

Let me think… I know I do other chores like sweeping, mopping, cleaning the bathroom things, etc. But those things just don’t really do much for me. I don’t feel as happy with those things. I can’t sweep or mop for long periods of time because my back starts to hurt (again). I spend a lot of my time going back and forth from the chair to where I’m sweeping or mopping.

I may not get things done in a timely fashion, but I do get them done in a pretty good manner. I can’t exactly brag on myself because I don’t do so much good. I don’t think I have a lot of faith in myself again, but I’m working on it.

UGH. I’m being a whiner, I guess.

Either way, I do a lot of chores around the house and it keeps me pretty busy. :3

Monday, September 23, 2013

Back from Hiatus!!

It’s been a long time since I’ve said anything on here. I’ve been taking a bit of a break. I felt like I wasn’t doing something right and that I shouldn’t go on. It was a really depressing time. I suppose it’s some form of depression… I’ve had it for a long time now.

Anyway, I was going to talk about my dynamic some more. I always do.

Batsz and I were talking this morning about the various forms of topping and bottoming that we already do. I’ve come to realize that no matter what I do, I still submit to him because I feel that he is the boss of the relationship and I am more of a worker. I’ve been told by others that I’m a “do-er” not a “talker.”

It’s just our way of doing things. It’s not one where we have punishment or anything very often. We get along just fine without it, but are considering adding something in there just for fun. We are mostly thinking of adding spankings because they are not too difficult for me to handle and things like that. (I’m not much of a masochist, but I have my moments.) Maybe we can add a spray bottle like they do with cats. It would be awesome. I do like being tied up though. That’s one of my favorite things to do. Anything that can add kitten play things to my dynamic makes me happy. I’m a good kitty. I rarely misbehave, but sometimes I just gotta brat it out.

I like to build various toys for people to use, and want to go into a business of making them on my own for fun. I doubt it would ever get off of the ground just because of the quality of my work so far. I’ve seen so much really good looking stuff; I just don’t have any faith in my own abilities. Maybe someday…

I just realized I went way off track. I don’t think I can hop back on track at the moment, so I’ll have to do some more typing some other day.

Lots of love,